Katie Taylor

I know exactly what you mean Christine, the memories may be all we have left but my goodness - there was so much fun and love in the making of them!  No-one knows that as well as you do from leading Katie on Bella & Cider from a very little girl, upto allowing her to play on Dragon, whom she adored as much as I did - the looking for a new pony for her together and finding Amber.  Meeting her from school, the parties, the laughs and all the way through it all - the love.  Its incomprehensible that all the love we all felt for her couldnt save her. And we are left with the memories. xxx

It's just not possible to express the feelings last night brought back so many wonderful memories and the sdness of that day, but you know what I feel I'm sure

Love as always

Christine

Wow, 2 years already!! doesnt seem it.  There is still yet to be a day where I havent thought of you. I am honoured to have known you and been able to have called you my best friend. You'll be in my thoughts til the day i join you sweetie. The memories i have i wouldnt change for anything (although the incident with chance, me and the deck chair is a possibility)!

Love Always x x

It's that time already!! I miss you and wish you were still here to talk to, I swear people are starting to think i'm insane when I chat to you at the cem!  I hope that one day all that has happened will make some kind of sense, but I fear not, so we'll all keep plodding on pretending that everything is 'normal'. Be up later, Love you always. Sx

Well its now just a week before the 17th June again sweetheart.  Almost time for the 3rd midnight walk.  We miss you just as much today as we did 2 years ago, maybe even more as it seems harder to cope now than it was last year.  We love you so very much as talk about you all the time, remembering the things you would say or do, and laugh abouth the things you would say now if we could hear you.  You certainly make sure we know you are still wit!h us.

Love you forever  darling.

Dad, Mum, Chris & Faith. xxx

Hugs all round and love as always

Dear God,

I think you've had our Kate for long enough now; could you maybe find it possible in your great all powerfulness to turn the clock back maybe and send her back to us?  You seen to be able to do so many other amazing things so I feel this one little request shouldnt be too hard for you to accomplish.  You see I dont think you actually realise how you taking her has shattered our lives.  Maybe you could just take the rest of us who are find it rather intolerable to live without her in their lives so at least we could be with her and know she's ok.  I know your busy overseeing everything else , but maybe you were off on holiday that day....and maybe our request for her to get better got lost in the post -so just in case we are requesting it again......please can we have Katie back because I reckon you have enough Angels up there in Heaven and we only want one down here.

Yours sincerely,

Wayne, Alison & Chris. x

Thanks Chris - finding things a bit tough at the moment.

Love to you and Dave.

Ali. xxx

Hi Honeybunch just pop in to say hello, lots of love as always

Hi Honeybunch, practising a new piece on my harp just for you, White Horses. Hope you like it and I could do with some help as I am not very good yet Love as always

Thats so sad. Makes you wonder who these idiots are. Nevermind Kate will poke 'em in the middle of the night more than likely and screw up their internet connections - LOL. 

See you all soon, look after yourselves.

GX

 Its sad but we are getting loads of spammers on here so I've just made the visitors page open to members only. All it means is that people now have to have a valid email address registered with the site before they can leave comments. It will only take an extra moment  to register and you can leave a message as normal.

Apologies for the inconvenience.

Hiya Kate,

We took your drum kit to Anthony Gell this morning. It seemed silly to keep it sitting there collecting dust - it was bought to be played and we had the feeling you would have been rather miffed about it going to waste. So to donate it to the school you loved so much seemed the right thing to do with it. They are having some brass plaques made for it all with "In Memory of Katie Taylor" on them; the tech block were going to do them. We saw Jodie and Ollie and had a lovely laugh with them and Mrs Jackson - it was just like the old days except you were a bit  quiet. Then Chris & I played Greenday very loudly in the car all the way home; it too was the right thing to do. Hope you approve; Im sure you do.

Love you.

Mum. xxx

Dear Katie,

I like many read and re-read your site. I've not commented on it before as like someone else says felt it wasnt my place. However after my husband recently died from Melanoma and being supported by your mum over the Mole forum I felt the need to express my sorrow at the way of your passing.  I cant comprehend how devastated your family must have felt, and where your mum gets her strength from to carry on being so supportive and upbeat to everyone else when there must be times she never wants to hear the word Melanoma again. You must have been such a wonderful young girl,  blessed to be loved by so many people who so obviously still adore you.  I cant believe these things are pre-destined, but your passing in such a way at so young an age has raised so much knowlege and thought about this terrible cancer that it makes me wonder if maybe these things are already set in the stars. Well whereever and whatever its all about - you were a remarkable young lady with a remarkable family.  I am sad I will never be able to meet you - it is my loss I feel. 

Hi Katie,

You don't know me but i have just read your story and felt i had to tell you what a remarkable young lady you are. I sincerely hope that wherever you are it is a far better place than here!! If you see my husband up there give a him a hug from me xxx You are an inspiration to everyone fighting this ghastly disease xxx Oh, and i better add that your mum is a fountain of knowledge and a huge support to many people on the same journey as you xxxx

Debi

Happy New Year Kate.

We are finally back on line thanks to B.T. Many thanks to your Anuty Angie for her birthday wishes, bless her.  We know you were here watching and laughing with us on Christmas Eve - we had a fantastic snowball fight - started by your brother of course!  After he and James had decided to build the worlds biggest snow man.  Its very re-assuring to come back on your site and see all the love people still feel for you Babybell - you see, we did try to tell you - you will never be forgotten, and as Ollie says (Bless him. xxx) "Everyone still thinks the world of you". You had some beautiful flowers left for you ove Christmas and your birthday - so many red roses with so very much love attached for you. They covered your grave all over again and looked stunning on top of the white snow.

Well, another day with another number at the end of it - further away from you but also in a macabre way closer to you too - so maybe this whole "New Year" thing is not something to be dreaded after all. 

Love forever and always sweetheart,

Mum, Dad & Chris. xxx

Hey,

I don't usually leave messages for fear that it's not my place, but I was thinking of you yesterday Kate, I hadn't forgotton what day it was. Pass on a hug to your mum from me, everyone still thinks the world of you.

Lots of love,

Ollie.

Spoke to Mum earlier today Katie and as usual she is managing to keep her mask firmly in place, but those closest  can see right through it and know just how terribly you are missed hunnibun, especially today as it is the 17th anniversary of your birth.  Neither Mum, Dad, or Chris can get online at the moment chic, so heres a huge bundle of love from them all for you.

Love from all of us too sweetie. Oh and lend me a hand next time it snows sweetie, I owe your Mum one :-)

xxxxxxxxx

Happy Birthday Honeybunch Thinking of you a lot today and remembering all our happy times together

Love as always

Hey Kate,

I know I haven't been up in a while and im sorry, I haven't forgotten about you and never will, how could I?!?!  I miss you so much. Tomorrow you would of turned 17, a whole new chapter in your life if you had not of left. I often think about you and even still shed tears, but knowing that you are all better up there and looking down having a laugh at some of the stuff we all say and do helps.

i'll see you again some day, I love you Katharine Alison Taylor x x x

To our darling Katie, Happy Christmas sweetheart,

we love you just as much even though you are unseen, enjoy your angel wings

love you forever,

Mum, Dad & Chris. xxx

I read and re-read this site once every few weeks. Everytime I feel astonished at the comments by people, the awareness that one death can raise.  I hope someday a national newspaper may print this story as it is so important that the public understand how Malignant Melanoma can affect anyone.  My heart goes out to Katies family. You raised a beautiful daughter, she must be so proud to have you as her family.  Please dont ever stop this campaign.

Peter.

Thank you so much.!!  I will make it my mission to impress upon the kids in my school to learn about all the signs of cancer and to advise them to take all the necessary steps to keep themselves healthy. 

Best wishes to you and your family, Sarah

Sarah Cooper,

Hello, I have tried to email you but the email keeps being returned. Yes - Please tell your students about Katie, please explain to them the original mole was not black, unsightly, or had grown - it was simply a large normal mole which had been there for ages which started itching - let them know how important it is to check their skins, and act promptly if anything changes.  Use the photo's - but tell them what happened, how aggressive this cancer is, relentless even in the face of Interferon, Chemo and radio therapy - Yes - please help us to spread the awareness of Melanoma.

Best wishes, Alison.

My name is Sarah Cooper and I am a senior at A.L. Brown High School in Kannapolis, NC.  I am doing my senior project on types of skin cancer and came upon your story about your daughter Katie's fight for life and was overwhelmed.  I want to express my deepest sympathy for your families loss.  I would like to present her story to the students at my school, to show them that it is not just older people who contract the disease, that it can affect everyone, no matter what age and where you are from. My mother was diagnosed with Basil Cell Carcinoma in October 2007, was caught in the early stage and has been treated without incident.   I have been told that in order to present the information to the class, I must have your written OK as it is in violation of the HIPPA laws to use the story even though it is posted on the internet.  If you are willing to have Katie's story told please let me no by return email.

Again I want to express my deepest sympathy for your loss and may God be with you.

To Katie's family. I am so deeply sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter. I can understand your need to do something to mark her memory, and raising awareness of melanoma, to hopefully save others, is wonderful. Thank you and good luck, and God bless Katie and all of you. xx

God Bless you, I cried for your beautiful Katie and for you three left behind. I lost my daughter 11 years ago when she was 24, melanoma sucks!

Missing you BabyBell,   thinking of what you would have been doing now if the Melanoma hadn't been so bloody strong and fast.  Other people get better so why not you? You were young and strong with everything to live for; now all your friends have moved on with their lives, and we are left tending your grave.  Just Me, your Dad, and Chris.  And those friends who will never forget you and still manage to talk about you to us without any false sympathy - just a quiet acceptance.  We love you so much Kate. xxx

On this National Day of Rememberance, we take a moment to remember all those who have given their lives; in ALL Battles across the years.

Especially our beautiful daughter Katharine, who so bravely waged her own war against Cancer.

As the stars that shall be bright when we are dust,

Moving in marches upon the heavenly plain;

As the stars that are starry in the time of our darkness,

To the end, to the end, they remain.

We will Remember them.

X.X.X.X.

missing you babybell. xxx

Hiya Kate, 

There's so much I want to tell you, Anna's Birthday - you would have loved the laughs and the fun; Darren & Rachel brought Ben over - you'd have loved him - he discovered he could climb the stairs upto the child gate! Rachel left some beautiful roses for you with a little note - give her a big hug babes, she misses you very much. Hannah has had her first litter of pups - little whoppers and is making a brilliant mum. Its Halloween this weekend, another get together with you there in spirit but it's not the same, we all miss you so very, very much. Oh Kate there's so much I need to talk to you about,  but I'll have to make do knowing you can hear me but I can't hear your answers.

Love you forever sweet heart.

Mum. xxx

Hi Babes,

Not often i post here but i read it often. I think people forget sometimes and this is the place to remind them of how preciouse life is. I miss you loads my girl. see you soon.  Love allways DAD. XXXXX

Trine,

I'm so sorry to hear about your son. Melanoma really is a devious, dispicable cancer that no-one deserves, least of all young people with their whole lives ahead of them.  I have emailed you the information, but just in case anyone else wants to know - the original mole when removed was 2mm, very small and insignificant - not black, raised or unsighty. The resulting wide excision and skin graft left a hole in her left calf approx. 5" in diameter - enough when it was healed to place a coffee mug into.  The hole does in time heal upwards and becomes less, although the scar and dint would always have been visible, even under jeans.  The groin dissection : 9 nodes were removed, only the first one was found to have melanoma in it, but already there were signs of the cancer on the outside of the node wall, and in her blood stream.  This was found and removed within 6 weeks of the hospital check, and less than a week after Katie finding the lump in her groin. I can't re-iterate strongly enough - keep checking yourselves; ANY lumps, bumps, or aches - go and get them checked if you have M.M.  - you could be saving your life.

To all those people reading Katies site, thankyou.  For your support and for the awareness you are helping to raise about the No. 1 cancer of the 21st century - Melanoma is not going to go away - the incidence rate is still going up - and I promise you...no matter what you think or have seen, you really do not want your loved ones dying of this disease.   Keep spreading the word, raising the funds for research and pass the link to this site to anyone and everyone.

Alison.

hi...this was a sad story...and im crying...i have a son who have malingt melanom.he is onely 17.i have wrote aløl about in the page malingt melanom under 30,,just read there .im sorry ..iam not so good to write english..but i have a very important quiestion..can i ask how many millimeter the node was whwn thw doctor took it away...my sons node on her back was 5mm,thank you for an aswear..and please write to me on my e-mail...

What lovely words to describe how you have to cope and put a brave face on when your heart is breaking for your lovely daughter. I have read your site for a while now and thought I could not find the words to say, but reading your words tonight have gave me the inspiration to do so. You are an inspiration to so many people going through similar situations. God Bless you Katie and love to your mum, dad and brother.

My Mum, she tells a lot of lies,

She never did before.

But from now until she dies,

She'll tell a whole lot more.

Ask my Mum how she is

And because she can't explain,

She will tell a little lie

Because she can't describe the pain.

Ask my Mum how she is,

She'll say 'I'm alright.'

If that's the truth, then tell me,

why does she cry each night?

Ask my Mum how she is,

She seems to cope so well.

She didn't have a choice you see,

Nor the strength to tell.

Ask my Mum how she is,

'I'm fine, I'm well, I'm coping.'

For God's sake Mum, just tell the truth,

Just say your heart is broken.

She'll love me all her life,

I loved her all of mine.

But if you ask her how she is,

She'll lie and say she's fine.

I am Here in Heaven.

I cannot hug from here.

If she lies to you don't listen,

Hug her and hold her near.

On the day we meet again,

We'll smile and I'll be bold.

I'll say, 'You're lucky to get in here, Mum,

With all the lies you told.

hi there katie,

just popping in to say hello,and let you no that you will never be forgotten,such a vibrant beautiful young woman.miss you always.xxxxxxxxxxxx

Well Kate,  I hear you had a new pet join you yesterday sweet-heart. Give him a big cuddle from me while your loving him to bits - you lucky girl!  Bet you're having a brilliant time  with all your favorite animals - Muffy, Tom, Bramble, the cats, old Smokey, Dragon goes without saying of course, Pinky, and now Pudsey.  Sorry though hunni - we're hanging onto Faith for a while yet - and I dont think Gareth is ready to give up Whisper either - so make the most of those you have already!

Love you forever,

 till we see you again. x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.

hey kate, been a while since i visited last, i'm sorry. i can't really find that much to talk about which we both know is strange for someone like myself. lots of things have happened, good and bad. me and jodie attended your walk with you, and how much it would mean to you at the very front of our minds. we miss you so much and i still think about you every day. things have been tough for the past couple of weeks. don't worry baby you have not been forgotten, and you never will be. i miss you so much xxxxxxxxx

Katie, safe from heaven are boasting a wonderful family you have. My blessings to you and yours

thankyou katie,if id not read your site i proberly wud keep leavin sumthing i keep puttin off from goin to docs to get checked out, godbless you.xxx

Hi Honeybunch just felt like saying hello, love as always

Christine is right Kate - the new house is fantastic - you would love it. The owls hooting to each other and flying around in the evenings, the pheasants clucking to each other as they walk past the front door, saying hello to the chickens. The dogs think the river is amazing - and the amount of other wildlife is astounding. We know you pop in to see us as we feel your presence, its very warming and reassuring. We love you very much darling. xxx

Had a great time at Chris's party and love the new house, i'm sure you have given it your blessing. Love as always

Nearly ready for moving now Kate - you would love the new house. In a private clearing at the edge of sherwood forest, we have the pheasant and partridges, not to mention the woodcock. Greater and lesser spotted woodpeckers, roe deer passing the front door to the drink at the stream where the geese will no doubt take up residence watching the otters play in the fresh water of the river Poulter - its beautiful. I know you will be there with us.  To Infinity and beyond eh Babybell!

Its Chris's 18th birthday tomorrow, and we are having a mass party and campout for the last time in the back field - the marquee is up already and the tents are arriving 3 went up last night with much laughter and "can you remember when.....'s" it was so good to have old friends - lots of flowers for you of course too - hope you enjoy the paper hot air doves Chris is releasing tomorrow night for you - they look stunning when their lights are lit and they just float up, up and away to you  each with its own personal message.

Love you darling,

Mum and Dad. xxx

Hi Kate,

I've never written to you before, but I'm one of those people that your mum mentions who still visit the site.  You must be so proud of your mum, I know I am.  The work she is doing to raise awareness about melanoma is amazing and all as a tribute to you, her wonderful daughter!  I'll tell you a secret, the way she writes and fights so passionately makes me cry, which is not a good thing cos I usually read your blog when I'm in work!

Say hi to Kerry and Alison from me.

Jackie xxx

Hiya Babybell,

Just want to give you a big hug at the moment. We had a lovely surprise yesterday, emotional but lovely. The people who moved into our old house discovered the concrete slab we did, they've dug it up and bought it here for us - so it will take pride of place in our new garden when we move. We had pressed our handprints into the wet cement, written our names and dated it the 2nd August 1999 - what a blast from the past. I know you will be with us in spirit when we move at the end of the month and feel this is your way of saying you will be there with us. It'll be good to get away from here.  Its comforting to know so many people still visit your site(even certain famiy members who dont contact us!) - and that you are raising awareness still into Melanoma. You were in the Derby Evening Telegraph again on Saturday so you certainly are not forgotton sweet heart. 

Love you Kate,

D,M,C.

W.A.C.

X.X.X.

I just wanted to say how sorry I am about your daughter Katie.  I did not know her, but came upon her story looking for information on melanoma.  My nephew is terminally ill with this horrific disease and I can't help but feel compelled to tell you how sad I am to read your story.  She must have felt so blessed to have a family and friends that loved her so much.  I pray that Katie's Midnight Walk will continue and raise awareness about this deadly cancer...through that, she will never be forgotten.  God bless your family.

Still think about you every day Honeybunch. Love as always